“Under the mistletoe”
Someone .
Monday, June 11, 2012 || 10:51 AM
To that someone .
Dear someone , conversations ....... Sad, funny, happy , furious, miserable ones . I'm sorry, i can be quite a person . We had a conversation , we all had our thoughts . Yes i was angry in the first place . When i was trying to have a conversation , i dislike one word reply . But later on , i was not , I was upset because there are some words that are left to be unspoken . We shared our life stories . True, mine not that worst , because i had everyone siding me . When i said , i get it , I really do . It was meant for me . I know you get pissed when you dont get what i'm trying to say . Cause it's better left unspoken . I'm sorry . I know and feel ur sorrows . I wish there is something i can do . Everyday i feel miserable too . When i just want someone to have a conversation with . I just wanto feel love and care . What you said to me, i feel you , i cried even badly knowingly how much you've gone thru and hurt . I know by telling me all this will crash ur feelings, but you wanto let me know , there is always someone living worst than me and want me to be strong, move on . Some problems cant be solve . Everything you told me before kept in my mind , it's my will to be strong . But sometime , i just broke down . I'm tired of holding on . Everything you said last night, i imagined it out , and felt deeply upset . I just want to give you a hug and cry with you, to tell you everything's gonna be alright, i may not be there but mentally i'm always there beside you . I know how you have ur fears facing some people . It's hard , but you're trying . After that what i said was wrong , I shouldnt have did what i said . I felt like a loser . like why are you doing this to me . I never though what you would did . If you're reading this . Someone , I'm sorry .
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|| 10:35 AM
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Saturday, June 2, 2012 || 10:02 AM
Yesterday like today , someone talked to me about friends . Friends , fake and true friends . I treasure and loved friends a lot . I am not a very good adviser , but i am there to listen all your troubles, be a ranting machine for u to rant to . You want something, i'll tried to get something for you . I see you happy, i am happy . Yes i said when i'm down, nobody seems to be there . Someone said "don expect anything in return " Yes . i don . But who doesnt wish to have someone there to love and care for you . That someone told me to be open minded to friends , don judge what they think . Yes i predict a lot of what they think , will they bitch or wtv about me , I'm sensitive . Of course i know, i am fking annoying . fact that is me , what can i do ? That someone said i've to change my mindset and learn to make more friends . Most of all open minded , constantly repeated this a thousand times . Friends come and go . I agree . I do have a some setbacks with some of them . I understood . I said " I've a clique " My classmates are all my best mates . Though they are not here but mentally , we all loved each other . That someone made me realised that , i'm like someone who always wanting something back and if i didnt, i'll break down . Yes sometimes , but Siyun & Vanilla is always here for me . I grew up in a place lack of family's love , all i ask is to have friends that i love and adore and treat them as family . That someone made me cried for 2 hours + . That the worst record ever . Didnt even drank water for 6 hours and forgot about dinner . Just stayed in one corner and cried . At the same time though of my dad . Why is he always not there for me . I cried even more . I asked Jolyn , honestly, am i really a bad friend . She said no and even give me a call to check on me . Moved . Then i started to get really mad . I want to ignore that someone a lot . Why he/she want to make me so upset and hurt . Yes he/she said it doesnt benefits he/she but he/she wants me to be open minded . I told he/she that i want to further away from he/she . It makes me think that i'm really bad friend, who only have a few friends to count on . Like a piece useless shit . When i'm typing all this shit , i'm still crying . I would never forget about this . Because this happened before to me and this best friend of mine . To someone , these words you told me, i would keep it in mind . Goodnight .
